After a much better nights sleep, 4 hours in row (seriously, a victory!!!) Here is what I have to say:
I love writing about birth and breastfeeding and midwifery and my pregnancy and all things of this nature. I have spent my entire adult life trying to unentangle myself from other people's problems which I cannot control, to realize that there will always be folks who dont understand me, dont approve of me, and if I shut down my blog or go into hiding, this problem will not go away. I am sure that lots of authors throughout history had nay sayers and thats part of life, one that is actually very miniscule in importance in comparison to the big picture. I have a child who couldnt get oxygen, I have friends with children in the hospitals and in the grave, I have a mom and a grandmother with cancer, I have friends and accquaintences going through divorce and abuse....if my blog even falls somewhere in there it is about the size of an atom, but it is MY atom and I enjoy it and will continue to do so.
So, happy to say I will continue on. Tons of love to everyone who wrote to me, but going "invite only" really really will decrease my readership and it is not the route I want to go.
In pregnancy news.....I totally feel the baby kick now, but I am quite convinced it is a girl because my boys were SO wild in the belly and Greta just did alot of rolls and swishes....could be wishful thinking, haha, but I think it is a girl as of now....very gentle tippy tappy little kicks....
I AM still going to be taking a break from the blogging for a week or so to go get my life in order...the cleanup from an entire family being 24/7 sick for 2 weeks is gonna be a looong slow process, but still looking forward to it of course.
Sorry for the scare, thank you for the support, not going to do anything different, Love to all, MamaJoy