Friday, February 8, 2008

Keeping on keeping on

Good Morning!

After a much better nights sleep, 4 hours in row (seriously, a victory!!!) Here is what I have to say:

I love writing about birth and breastfeeding and midwifery and my pregnancy and all things of this nature. I have spent my entire adult life trying to unentangle myself from other people's problems which I cannot control, to realize that there will always be folks who dont understand me, dont approve of me, and if I shut down my blog or go into hiding, this problem will not go away. I am sure that lots of authors throughout history had nay sayers and thats part of life, one that is actually very miniscule in importance in comparison to the big picture. I have a child who couldnt get oxygen, I have friends with children in the hospitals and in the grave, I have a mom and a grandmother with cancer, I have friends and accquaintences going through divorce and abuse....if my blog even falls somewhere in there it is about the size of an atom, but it is MY atom and I enjoy it and will continue to do so.

So, happy to say I will continue on. Tons of love to everyone who wrote to me, but going "invite only" really really will decrease my readership and it is not the route I want to go.

In pregnancy news.....I totally feel the baby kick now, but I am quite convinced it is a girl because my boys were SO wild in the belly and Greta just did alot of rolls and swishes....could be wishful thinking, haha, but I think it is a girl as of now....very gentle tippy tappy little kicks....

I AM still going to be taking a break from the blogging for a week or so to go get my life in order...the cleanup from an entire family being 24/7 sick for 2 weeks is gonna be a looong slow process, but still looking forward to it of course.

Sorry for the scare, thank you for the support, not going to do anything different, Love to all, MamaJoy


Judit said...

Yay Joy! Glad to hear it's a bit better! and so cool your teeny beanie is quickening :) it's sinking in, really, really you have a person in there? hooray!
ps. my girlie was so much more fluttery-like too.

mm said...

I can breathe again. Kept waiting for a hopeful invite all night and morning!
Here is to a speedy and quiet recovery for everyone.
My one and only girl only had me puking 20 out of 24 hours a day... she wasn't any less active though... sigh! Still isn't!

CNH said...

What did I miss?

Hoping you are feeling better SOON! (((hugs)))

I am a Monkey's Momma said...

And much love to you, MamaJoy. I'm glad to hear that you got some much deserved sleep & I hope the pattern of feeling better continues.


Kelley said...

Yay! I'm glad you're back. I've missed you, and I think about you all the time. I have something fun I want to tell you, but I'll email it to you privately. It's still mostly a secret. :)

I'm glad to hear things are going better on the pregnancy front. Isn't this part fun! :) Especially when you aren't sick and you are getting enough sleep.

Love ya.

Corin said...

My daughter ONLY did the soft, rolling, swooshy kind of movements. I always thought it was funny that I barely ever felt her kick. It sounds like you could definitely be having a girly girl!

Firefly Mama said...

Whew! I thought I was going to lose my Joy connection. Glad to see you are staying public!!!

Rixa said...

Oh, I miss feeling a baby moving around inside!

Kelley said...

I had a very interesting thing happen after Josh was born. I felt phantom baby kicks for MONTHS afterwards. It was so weird, but really cool, too. I haven't experienced it since, but it was cool while it lasted. I wonder what will happen after this one since I'm pretty sure it's my last.

Jill said...

I must have missed whatever this post was about, but I'm glad you're not leaving! You're one of my favorite reads!

Kelley said...

Sorry. I was just commenting on Rixa's comment.

Judit said...

Hey Joy my dh and I were talking last night and your guilt-free living circa 1997 post came up (a big big fave of mine) so I had him read it, and I also showed him your 'hair' blog. (Cute!!!!) He thinks you're cool :D

Housefairy said...

Thanks, Judit!!!

To everyone who is a bit confused by this post, I had a mild freak-out and considered taking my blog to "invite only" due to the fact that I am getting a really hard time from a few people outside of the blog world about what I write here and it is giving me a lot of stress and massive writers block. I feel like i cant write about what i want and need to without the resultant fall-out and it has put me in a very hard place, which might be just what these people want, to shut me down, i do not know.

anyhow, I slept on it, something i had been sorely lacking (sleep) and decided that this was a preposterous teenaged thing to do, to hide, and so i will not do so. All of you mean too much to me and so does this blog. All that being said, I still am dealing with 4 very sick kids and a husband who is as sick as me, and it has been a horrific I might not write too much for a couple more days but I am alive and hope to be back soon.