I cannot believe i am this far along. Despite all the stuff I have been going through and adjusting to, I dont FEEL pregnant. I feel weird and different and sometimes ill, exhausted, sore, itchy, old, crabby, messed up, but not pregnant. It is neat, and yet I feel strange about it.
One of the biggest most wonderful things that this pregnancy has been SO different from the other four is that I am not suffering from intense, constant bladder pain. I really thought that that was what "feeling pregnant" meant, to be quite honest. A STABBING, ACHING, 24-7 OVERWHELMING bladder pain. Like you drank a gallon of water and then someone sat on your lap. Every single second. I rarely had any official UTI diagnosed, at the doctor or the midwife, but this was what it was all about for me. I cannot downplay enough how distinct the lack of this feeling has been for me. I can walk and even run through the grocery store, the house, the park. Not for too long, as I get winded but there is NO bladder pain. My kids can jump into my lap, I can squeeze into a few last non-maternity clothes, and, like I said, there is no bladder pain.
I almost wonder if during the last c-section they put my uterus back in differently. Sick right? You are aware that they take the whole thing out and plop it up on your abdomen, right? Sick sick sick but I watch it on TV all the time. I wonder if the people who "didnt get" why I wanted some help postpartum thought that all they did was slice a little line like how you cut a little slit in the hotdog to slip in the cheese slice. : ) No, dude, they take your business right out, and put it back in, and it heals how it will.
I am so happy to be free of this overwhelming and semi debilitating pain, thats for damn sure. Even if they just messed up my nerves and I am numb to it now, that was the number one pinnacle thing, the overriding thing for me why "GOING FOR A WALK" was not my idea of fun when pregnant. It hurt like a knife, and took my breath away and my steps away from me.
Cool and weird and wonderful.
I try to feel the baby kick and I think I did this morning. I did-- I felt a flutter,which my belly would not just randomly flutter, but until I feel the thumps and bangs, I always feel a tiny bit stressed.
6 comments:
Yay for no bladder pain!
How is the itching? Better? worse? still the same?
I'm so thankful you don't have the bladder pain this time. I got something like this (not nearly as painful or sensitive) during the last 2 months of each pregnancy. Like, I HAVE TO GO NOW! And each step was painful and awful. I can' imagine what you had to go through.
I am so blissed out for you and your growing little human bean. :)
More belly pics soon?
Eeew... that hot dog (un)analogy was very funny!!! I am SO happy for you about your new comfort.
Hey, did you hear that Christina Aguilera told reporters she did not expect to be still in pain 6 days postpartum? I really wonder what kind of informed consent she got before her ECS. For someone who literally broadcast her wish over the world that she was to have no pain with childbirth, didn't someone clue her in beforehand? Poor girl. (No sarcasm, I really mean it.)
I am SO glad you aren't dealign with that pain this time. Has the itching gone away yet?
I can totally relate with how this pregnancy feels different and kind of weird. I think I'll be more comfortable about all this when th baby starts kicking up a storm. That's my favorite part anyway. Still, why would these pregnancies be SOOOOO different from our others?
YAY for a bladder-pain-free pregnancy! That's AWESOME!
I would bewilling to bet the docs put you back together wrong somehow. I've heard tell of it before. It's not like they can look in there beforehand and see EXACTLY where everything was first, so they're bound to put it back at least a little bit off.
Congrats on not being in pain!
But I've NEVER seen this in the c-sections i've observed: "I almost wonder if during the last c-section they put my uterus back in differently. Sick right? You are aware that they take the whole thing out and plop it up on your abdomen, right?"
Is this an occasional thing or the norm?
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