ok, it is a few hours later and i do feel aLOT better. shower, outfit, etc.
I would like to state the obvious here and say that if someone is here taking care of the other kids, and i am all clean and wrapped up snug on the couch with a big drink and food and the baby, I am doing quite well. but when I am alone here with all of them, I am a mess and cant really seem to take care of anyone well, and there is a whole lot of filth and pop tarts going on. It sucks and is depressing, quickly.
Dear baby is NOT gassy, really, but when she gets sip sip sip of nursey and then i have to go running across the house for various bad behaviors by the kids she gets stressed. duh.
i guess right now is suppossed to be psychedelic, but i wish it were a better trip, so to speak. I am trying to enjoy stuff and i do, but man o man i wish the fairy would come and take the darlings to the park or something so i can hurry up and feel better. I am pissed off at how not better i am so far, whether that is the healin' spirit, i really cant be more honest than to say i feel pissed off. I have a MASSIVE headache, along with incision pain and general weakness. I feel like i have the flu, and got into a sword fight in my belly and a medium car crash. Sucky!
Cant wait to get stronger, i have such wonderful plans of how it will be....
new pics of angel baby tomorrow, Daddy had to get more batteries for the camera