I am experiencing major mush-brain, but I wanted to tell you a little about how this blog got started!
I used to have a homeschooling/family newsletter type blog. But then everyonce in a while, I would really, really want to write about birth. Every once in a while I would really, really want to write about pink hairdye. every once in a while I would really, really want to write about recipes or ways to save money or simplicity ala moving to a tiny house....and it didnt seem to fit. Especially the birth stuff, it was way too radical for my "readers" and my anger levels felt very bottled up and I just wanted a dedicated platform to say my thang, you know?
So I envisioned having a birth blog. But where to discuss fashion? Where to discuss groceries? So I made all four.
Here was one of my first birthy things I ever wrote on the original blog. It might not be my best writing but I remember the feelings of writing that piece like it was yesterday. Believe it or not this was one of the first times I ever DISCUSSED my feelings about my c section(s), anywhere, ever! I had a TON of anger at the "people who didnt come help me" and at my own naivete and foolishness at not putting aside alot of money to just hire-out. Almost exactly like Eska's birth, the anger circles around and grasps for someone to be angry AT and it goes back to myself and then it does slow down, it does.
ps I am STILL writing my birth story but it is so long!!!!! it is in "drafts"--very rare for ole' impulsive Joy.